But sometimes, I find that just sitting down, focusing on writing and nothing else actually helps me focus, helps me concentrate, and helps me process all that's going on.
I want to tell you guys so much. I want to sit down with each of you, perhaps over some mint chocolate chip ice cream (I'm craving that right now, not gonna lie), and just spill my heart out. I had the chance to pray with a fellow Children's Ministry team leader (and unofficial mentor) last week and really felt the power of prayer. Let's be real for a second, though. I never thought I would be one of those pray-out-loud-kinds-of-people. I prayer journal at night, say my pretty much scripted grace once a week with the family (we take turns), and will say grace on my own (sometimes--I'm guilty and need to work on that one). But praying out loud for the upcoming "new" Sunday School year? Praying for the church, the children, the families, and the teachers? That was something I was not used to and yet it was so powerful and it makes me want to join a Bible study of my own.
That's right. I'm not in a Bible study--does that make me a bad Christian? I know it doesn't, but I also know that it's good to be in community with fellow believers--like blogging is and has been for me. And while I love each and every one of you (yes, even you who is reading but hasn't commented yet!), I also learned the importance of face-to-face relationships last week. So I'm going to start praying over that one. Unless one or two of you are interested in maybe doing some sort of Bible study thing over Skype or Google Hangouts? Just throwing that one out there...
So where am I going with all of this? To be honest, I just feel like I have so much to say and yet for certain reasons, I just don't feel like I can. It's tough because I want to be real, I want to be honest, and yet I also am going through a point in time where I feel like I need to be patient and wait--a waiting period in my life that I never planned for and one that seems much too long in my opinion.
So there you have it. A little piece of my mind. A little reminder to myself that everything takes time, that prayer is powerful, and that life goes on.
Except not my cravings for mint chocolate chip ice cream. Nope, still got that one.